Been asking myself that a lot lately.  I’ve got a lot on the table and I’m having a tough time putting a stake in the ground and saying "yep, here I am… this is where I am, who I am and what I want to be doing!"

Here’s a quick run-down:

Had a fantastic lunch with the guys from 3-D Entertainment in Worcester today.  Ended up turning into a 4-hour meeting, actually.  They put on Locobazooka, a local hard rock/heavy metal festival.  they also do promotions and bookings for a variety of other acts and venues.  They basically offered me the opportunity to do sponsorship sales for them while getting in with a growing company (I’d be essentially the third "employee" of theirs) with a lot of opportunity.  Could start to put together my own shows and even festivals.

Yeah, for those of you who know me, this is pretty much my fucking dream job.   But it is sales – and sponsorship sales at that, which is really tough.   I’ve never been too keen on sales, but everyone tells me I’d be good at it.  And I kind of feel that I need to do this.  When else in my life am I going to have a chance to reach for a dream like this?   It isn’t IDEALLY what I’d like to be doing, but if I can slog through it for a few months, it might be the foot in the door for that later on.

However, it is a commission-only basis, so I need to find other employment.  The Ocean Group freelance stuff is keeping me pretty good, and I’ll have another training session with the Dept. of Social Services in July and/or August.  I’m still doing work for Mech-Chem (or should be… been too busy to really work on it of late) and I haven’t really reached out to all the other people who said they could help me if I went freelance. 

I’ve also got some leads with some contract marketing placement firms.

I really have this strong desire to "cobble together" what I want to do for the next few months and see where things take me.  The regional marketing manager position is definitely a good one and would be good for my career, but there is a part of me that would like to do something different and take this chance to chase a dream or two. 

I also have my boss from The Ocean Group asking me to help him with a web site for people with arthritis.  I think it is funny that it seems that every boss I’ve ever had always wants to go into business with me at some point.  I’m pretty sure it is a compliment.  I also think it is a sign…

Speaking of which, then you have my band marketing idea.  I’ve got the domains registered and a rough business plan that I’m working on and starting to bounce around.  The 3-D Entertainment job might give me an opportunity to get that off the ground as well.

Unfortunately for you, if you’ve read this far looking for a resolution to these questions and issues, you’re pretty much shit out of luck.  I really have no idea what I want to do!  Suggestions are welcome, however….